Prayer

Why can't I feel You?
You said You won't leave,
And yes I believe!
But why won't You come near?
Should I be in fear?
Did I displease You, my only Love?

What have I done to separate us?!
Examine my heart, and bring to light
All of the wrongs that have been done tonight.

I confess in my heart...
In the deepest places of me...
Forgive me, Your child...
For I know I am Redeemed.

I confess with my mouth...
Aloud for You to hear...
I know You are crying...
For me to repent...

Now, I am crying for you to draw near.
Forgive me, my God...
Make me righteous in Your eyes.
Give wisdom to this humble child...
I pray! I pray!

Father, please forgive me, I know not what I've done.
Please wash me and fill me with Your Holy, Precious Son.
I may not be the wisest, the strongest, or the bravest...
But I will be a light for Your glory, until all my days are gone.

Forgiveness is so sweet... surrendered at the throne.
My Jesus, My Jesus... Your Light has been shown.
Now, wash me and make me whiter than snow.
Yes, Lord, whiter than snow.

Life recently...

so, there have been some incredibly amazing things happen to me in the past two weeks. All since we got back from the beach. My life has taken a turn I did not see coming. When I dwell on it for too long, my mind starts coming up with crazy scenarios and I get so nervous I want to cry. But the possibilities are endless. and the truth of the matter is: that scares the crap out of me. My life will take an entirely different direction from where I thought God was wanting me to go. I was so sure that this is what He wanted, but now I'm not so sure. My mind is completely confused... I've been thinking too much. Tomorrow, however, will be a day that goes down in my history books. We'll see where God leads me. This honestly makes my cry... I can't believe it... why me? I am so unworthy... I don't deserve this... What do I do? I am so blessed. Jesus rocks my world... He still provides for me, even when I neglect Him. He is my only lover... others will come and go: they have. But He will never leave me! I am His beautiful bride! Someday... someday... :) Give me peace, Lord. All I want is you! "I am so in love with you! There is nothing else I choose! You've stolen my heart!"

Kelly