Sunday, December 28, 2008


I am one of those people that loves a good action movie. The war movies (The Green Berets, The Longest Day), spy movies (James Bond), old westerns (El Dorado, Rio Lobo, The Searchers, Horse Soldiers), fantasy movies even (Star Wars), mysteries (Alfred Hitchcock). I love a good thrill. I love old black and white movies. Movies with Dean Martin, Frank Sinatra, John Wayne, etc. The most recent movies I have seen in the theater: Dark Knight - an amazing psychological thriller (in my humble opinion), Traitor - a pretty cool movie. I enjoyed it, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 - it was surprisingly good. I won't ever watch it again tho, Bolt - the best darn animated movie I have seen in a LONG time. It was SO cute and funny, Twilight - totally wasn't expecting this movie tobe good. Surprise! I LOVED it. I am what they would call a movie person. I like most movies, but there are very few movies that I love -the ones that I could watch day after day and they never grow old. Only over the past 2 or 3 years however have I become the biggest fan of chick flicks. I've always liked them, obviously, BUT they were always those cheesy love stories like Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, Princess Diaries, Ella Enchanted, etc. Don't get me wrong those are cute movies. I'm 19 now... so not my favorites anymore. I love "How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days," "The Notebook" - the epic love story. =P But there is no movie like "Pride and Prejudice." WHOA DUDE. =) That movie makes me feel something... something that no other movie can make me feel. It is my favorite movie of any genre. Something about Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy. Depsite their faults, their false judgments of each other, they fall in love. Perfectly and unconditionaly fall in love. =) There... now you know my favorite movie. The book is quite amazing too. In fact, I think I just might begin reading it again.

Peace yo. =)

Monday, December 15, 2008

The Jealousy and Love of My God

My Lord is jealous for His people. He is enthralled with their beauty. Each creation with it's own beauty. His view is not distorted like yours and mine is. He sees each of us as a mother sees her newborn baby after giving birth. All gross and icky out of the womb... that mother only sees her beautiful child and is enthralled with his/her beauty. He wants us... no my God is not selfish. He is selfless. How then can He be jealous for me? He is my Father, my Master. I belong to Him already. He only wants what is His to being with. Yet, I run so far away from Him. “How often I wanted to gather your[Jerusalem's] children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!" - Matthew 23:37b(NKJV). Oh, how I have forsaken my Lord. He calls and calls to me, but I am too content with the apathetic life I lead. I'm too afraid to return to Him, for I know He will do great things in my life. Joshua felt the same way apparently. In Joshua 1, God, time after time, tells Joshua "I will be with you, I will not leave you nor forsake you." (Joshua 1:5, 9) He tells him over and over again to "Be strong and of good courage" (Joshua 1:6, 9). In verse 7 God says,"Be strong and very courageous." Despite your fears, your flaws, your sins... Your God will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you. Ever. It really is that simple. It's His promise to you and I. To all generations. His love floods our lives everyday, but we're too busy to even notice it. Sad, huh? All that and He still loves us. "The LORD your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.” - Zephaniah 3:17(NKJV).

For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God. - Exodus 20:5
For the Lord your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God. - Deuteronomy 4:24

We turn away from Him and create our own idols. Placing God second, third, fourth, fifth on our list. Instead of taking away His love while we chase after other lovers, He never leaves us nor forsakes us. As in the story of Hosea, God commanded Hosea to to take a wife, but not just any woman was to be his wife. God told Hosea to take Gomer, a harlot, to be his wife. So he obeyed the command of the Lord. "For [Gomer] said, 'I will go after my lovers...' " And she did. She cheated on Hosea time and time again. Later... "I will go and return to my first husband, for then it was better for me than now.' " 

I find the Bible to be a whole love story. and not for the obvious reasons that are running through your head right now. Throughout the entire Old Testament all I ever see are the Israelites praising God for deliverance and then a split second later grumbling and complaining and cursing God to back to rejoicing over His mercy. God continually blessed His chosen people and they STILL rebelled. They STILL complained against Him! After all He did for them, they just were never satisfied. It was all temporary. When they crossed the Red Sea (escaping from Egypt), they praised God! Then when they arrived in the desert with no food or water (completely forgetting how powerful there God was! He had just parted the GIGANTIC Red Sea), they immediately begin to grumble and say how they would be better off in bondage instead of starving to death in the desert! Oh how quickly we forget the Lord's Providence! 

And despite all these short comings, God forgave them. Every time. He never left them or forsook them. He loved them and showed compassion and mercy. All throughout the OT!! Every time I open up my Bible, I see some subtitle over a chapter saying "The Renewal of Israel" and "A Call to Repentance." Over and over again. He never leaves them. Now that is true love. 

"Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm; For love is as strong as death, Jealousy as cruel as the grave..." - Song of Solomon 8:6

"Many waters cannot quench love, nor can the floods drown it." - Song of Solomon 8:7

"I am my beloved's and his desire is toward me." - Song of Solomon 7:10

My God is jealous for my love. I break His heart every time I replace Him. His jealousy is righteous. I am His. 

Monday, December 8, 2008

Am I Insane?!

Am I insane for taking such pride in the work of others? ha. I know! It's crazy! I don't even really know him. To be apart of this and to know that he is too... whether our paths cross or not(and they have)... to know we are on the same side. I am encouraged by his faith. I am so proud of the way he holds himself. Putting Christ first... not caring what everyone else says. Standing strong... I go around bragging about him. Like I can claim what he does as my own. So, am I insane? I don't know. Maybe if I was going around acting like he was my best friend or something. Acting like he does the things he does because of me. then that might be a problem. But I don't think being proud OF him is wrong. It's like a mother with her kids. Yes I can't believe I just said i was like his mother. That's awkward. you get the point. He really makes me smile. :) I pray the Lord lets our paths cross again. I want to hear MORE of his testimony. *sigh* I really can't describe the way it makes me feel. It's like my soul is beaming from within. :) God is good. All glory goes to Him. and I have this feeling of smiling on the inside. :) It's quite divine. peace yo. <3

Saturday, December 6, 2008


Find out what it means to me.

RESPECT: due regard for the feelings, wishes, rights, or traditions of others. emphasis on the
*regard for the feelings of others* not just regard, but *due* regard.

take a lesson. you want my respect? then respect me. it's a mutual thing. period.

My feelings matter. I don't care what you say. THEY DO. You disrespect me? Ok. You do that. Just don't get mad at me, if I "forget" to respect YOUR feelings. Oops. 

I'm sick of being treated like I don't matter. I do. PERIOD. 

Stop walking all over me. Not happening anymore. It's NOT happening EVER again. The End.

Monday, December 1, 2008

All I Want for Christmas

is movie​s.​ yup. =)

1. Batma​n Begin​s
2. The Dark Knigh​t
3. Pride​ and Preju​dice


Super​natur​al Box Set
Seaso​ns 1-3. =)

and some gift cards for itunes would be nice too. =)

that's all. =)