Saturday, February 14, 2009

44 ODD Things about Me. :)

44 ODD Things about you!
Fill this out, learn 44 things about your friends, and let them learn 44 things about you!

1. Do you like Bleu Cheese?
mhm

2. Have you ever been drunk?
no

3. Do you own a gun?
no

4. What flavor of Kool Aid was your favorite?
Grape, Blue Raspberry

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
yes

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
they're not bad.

7. Favorite Christmas movie?
White Christmas

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Milk

9. Can you do push ups?
kinda
:)

10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
eh, not a big jewelry person

11. Favorite hobby?
uhm.

12. Do you have A.D.D.?
yes

13. What's your favorite shoe?
flip-flops

14. Middle name?
Ann

15. Name 3 thoughts you have at this moment:
Meeting with Kristyn and Brian on 280 tonight, where do I want to eat, and one more thing...

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
water, tea, milk

17. Current worry?
test monday

18. Current hate right now?
noen

20. How did you bring in the New Year?
WORSHIPPING! :) It was amazing! :)

21. Where would you like to go?
Anywhere, really. :)

22. Name three people who will complete this?
idk

23. Do you own slippers?
no

24. What color shirt are you wearing right now?
I have on a black dress-like shirt

5. Do you like sleeping on Satin sheets?
I'm sure I would.

26. Can you whistle?
yes

27. Favorite color?
purple

28. Would you be a pirate?
will Johnny Depp be there? ;)

29. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I prefer singing in the car over singing in the shower.

30. Favorite Girl's Name?
Rebekah

31. Favorite boy's name?
Blake

32. What's in your pocket right now?
nothing

33. Last thing that made you laugh?
Brian. ha. :)

34. Best bed sheets as a child?
the flowery ones

35. Worst injury you've ever had as a child?
I went over a ramp on my bike and landed on my face. it was pretty bad.

36. Do you love where you live?
eh, it's not bad.

38. Who is your loudest friend?
I am pretty much the loudest of my friends

39. How many dogs do you have?
0

40. Does someone have a crush on you?
I don't know. you tell me.

41. What is your favorite book?
I love the books of Song of Solomon and James

42. What is your favorite candy?
kit kat bars

43. Favorite Sports Team?
ALABAMA CRIMSON TIDE!

44. What song do you want played at your funeral?
haha, something CRUNK! :) :)

Thursday, February 5, 2009

contemplative...

sometimes i feel like giving up.
sometimes i do give up.
only God could love me.
sinner that i am.
life is pointless without Him.
why live if God is not God of all gods?
if He were a god i could hold in my hands,
what good would He be as God? 
He is a God who holds me in His hands.
He is mighty and powerful.
majestic, filled with glory.
all glory, honor, power should go to Him.
He is my prayer in the desert.
He is my hope, my strength, my life.
Without Him i am nothing.
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i cannot begin to describe how much i hate being ignored.
it pisses me off like nothing else can.
you call me names, act childish, be ridiculously stubborn.
that's fine. i'll get over it.
you ignore me... dude it's on.
when you ignore me, i take that as a sign of disrespect.
if you respect someone, you will listen to them.
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i want Your heartbeat, Lord
i want to see the things you see
i need to see them
my heart cries out
Lord, Your compassion never fails.
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stubbornness.
honorable?
or selfish?
both, i say.
i'm stubborn in that i refuse to be like everyone else.
you know those northface jackets?
i will never own one of them.
why?
everyone has one.
i don't want to be like everyone.
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compassion
the definition of compassion in the dictionary should be 
"Jesus"
that is the story of His life
i don't understand, how He did it
He died an ugly death for people who would hate Him
why would He do that?
He has compassion on man-kind
blows my mind
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i believe in giving everyone the benefit of the doubt
Christ gives second chances, third chances, fourth chances, etc
shouldn't i?
i refuse to make snap judgements based solely
on what i see on the surface
there is ALWAYS more than what meets the eye
i have learned from experience
who i am to act like i know everything?
ha. i am stupid
who am i?
kelly ann bean
insignificant
but loved.
and because i'm loved
i become significant 
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Overloaded

Wrote this about 7 months ago. July 15, 2008.

when my world starts crashing in

and everything that is familiar to me dissapeares

when everyone just doesn't understand

everything that's important to me.

When I become overloaded...

all I can do is look to Jesus.

He is the calm in my storm.

He is the peace in this crazy world.

all I can do is fall on my knees and just simply trust Him...

Monday, February 2, 2009

Bursting with Joy.

if you just open your eyes, you'll see God in every thing that happens in your life. When you look for Him, you see His blessings EVERYWHERE! On my way to class today it was POURING rain. I prayed and asked God to stop the rain just long enough for me to walk to class without getting drenched. I also asked Him to open up a parking place CLOSE. Guess what? The rain stopped BEFORE I got there, and I spotted a place to park as I was driving up. I know you might be thinking, "Kelly, that's ridiculous." But I don't believe in coincidences, I believe that God can move this earth whichever way He pleases, and His timing is perfect for His children. :) I love my Jesus.

Late night thought.

I was thinking, "I don't understand..." What don't I understand? I don't understand how some people are so easily accepted and other's aren't. Why is it that the pretty face is soon everyone's best friend? What about the other girl? The girl with all the passion and authenticity, works her butt off, does her job, and does not always speak aloud her feelings, but is so eager to be a friend. Why is she always the last to form a friendship? And why do even those friendships have some distance in them? And that is what led to this: 

"Why should I even bother loving someone and showing them the love of Christ if I'm only going to be rejected? Why put myself through that?" God just gave me this simple answer. (He's cool like that). Look what Jesus went through. He knew He would be rejected. He knew who would accept Him as Lord and who wouldn't. That didn't stop Him. He still died on the cross: for the world, and for the men who hammered the nails into his hands and feet. He still loved them. He still reached out to them. He still died for them, knowing they would kill Him. 

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Thought for the day.

This confu​ses me. Why do peopl​e care if Jessi​ca Simps​on gaine​d weigh​t or not. God forbi​d she actua​lly weigh​ anyth​ing.​ She has to be a tooth​pick.​ No wonde​r so many girls​ have eatin​g disor​ders.​ Stupi​d media​.​ Who cares​?​