Thursday, February 5, 2009

contemplative...

sometimes i feel like giving up.
sometimes i do give up.
only God could love me.
sinner that i am.
life is pointless without Him.
why live if God is not God of all gods?
if He were a god i could hold in my hands,
what good would He be as God? 
He is a God who holds me in His hands.
He is mighty and powerful.
majestic, filled with glory.
all glory, honor, power should go to Him.
He is my prayer in the desert.
He is my hope, my strength, my life.
Without Him i am nothing.
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i cannot begin to describe how much i hate being ignored.
it pisses me off like nothing else can.
you call me names, act childish, be ridiculously stubborn.
that's fine. i'll get over it.
you ignore me... dude it's on.
when you ignore me, i take that as a sign of disrespect.
if you respect someone, you will listen to them.
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i want Your heartbeat, Lord
i want to see the things you see
i need to see them
my heart cries out
Lord, Your compassion never fails.
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stubbornness.
honorable?
or selfish?
both, i say.
i'm stubborn in that i refuse to be like everyone else.
you know those northface jackets?
i will never own one of them.
why?
everyone has one.
i don't want to be like everyone.
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compassion
the definition of compassion in the dictionary should be 
"Jesus"
that is the story of His life
i don't understand, how He did it
He died an ugly death for people who would hate Him
why would He do that?
He has compassion on man-kind
blows my mind
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i believe in giving everyone the benefit of the doubt
Christ gives second chances, third chances, fourth chances, etc
shouldn't i?
i refuse to make snap judgements based solely
on what i see on the surface
there is ALWAYS more than what meets the eye
i have learned from experience
who i am to act like i know everything?
ha. i am stupid
who am i?
kelly ann bean
insignificant
but loved.
and because i'm loved
i become significant 
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1 comment:

SMiLE ~ JESUS LOVES YOU said...

Woah!!! Now that is amazing!!!!!!!